Another unexpected development and it got me thinking and wondering for awhile (thinking again!) i've actually been considering coming back to manila lately, because i'm starting to get bored here' but i told myself, to be patient and just let things go it's own course and not push anything i've really decided to let master fate have its own way' so i'm not doing anything and ive decided to be patient and wait

but lady fate has got it going again, teasing me and making fun of me

i feel like i'm a very hungry fish and then suddenly, i see a very fat worm wiggling off a hook it's very tasty and i’m very hungry… and i’m faced with a decision, should i eat the worm and risk being caught or should i just go away and find some lousy plankton to eat?

uhmm… i’ve always been an adventurous person and i like being challenged, but at most times, my love for adventure and my being impulsive and fatalistic gets the better of me and i end up in very compromising situations…

i’ve always said that my going to cavite was a decision i made very impulsively, it was a decision i made based on very wrong reasons… i had an underlying agenda there, and as such i sufferred the consequences… it took an anxiety attack and a very bad case of asthma attack to make me realize that i made the wrong decision, so i went home… but then again that was in the past and i’m learning not to dwell on the past… so let’s forget about that for awhile…

uhhm, back to the present, so the oathtaking for new new ECE’s would be on May 2 (that’s a tuesday)… and francis (amistoso) was asking me what the dress code is… and then he asks me, if i already have a job and when i said no, he asked me if i wanted to go with him to manila to look for a job there… at first i thought he meant, if i’d go to manila but then he asked me if i’d go with him on friday… friday?! i knew i’d say no, but it made me think and consider it anyway…

but then my reason got the better of me, i really don’t want to make the same mistake again, going there without giving it much thought and more importantly, going there for the wrong reasons would only make matters worst, besides, if i’d go with him, where am i supposed to stay? i couldn’t very well go with him in his tita’s house…  he says he’d look for an apartment but when i asked him if his other classmates would go with him, he says they’re all going to look for work in cebu…

i don’t think that i could go away again and have another adventure, besides, i dont feel really comfortable of arrangements if ever i’d go…

so, i decided that i have to be patient and just let things go its own natural way…