i just had finished “talking” to clarice through ym… it’s really funny how time passes by so quickly when you are having fun and not minding the time… i’ve even done quite a lot of work to… even though i’ve been ym’ing the whole time… ahaahaha.. and now, i’m writing in my blog… uh huh… what a slacker… i really should be fired…. (guilty!)

we were just talking about everything and nothing at all… our friends, my plans, her plans, job hunting and then, she told me about what’s happening to nelly… the love of her life is now back again in her life…

i had a hard time, trying to stop myself from laughing out loud when she told me this… i just tried to smile (my co-workers must think and wonder why i had this goofy looking smile)… honestly though, i have mixed feelings about this new development, for one thing, i’m really happy for her and for another, i’m also quite worried and kind of holding back… nelly and i can really relate to each other because of the times that we would really talk our hearts out to each other… she would be the only person i’d tell about heart matters and i think that our bond and undertstanding for each other really grew strong because of the times we’ve spent crying together…

uhum… i do not really want to dwell in the past because that would only open up my barely-healed-still-hurting wounds… but for her, uhum being back in her life (he texted her and said that he missed her and even said i love you!… imagine that) would, i think really make her happy… she says that she would not fall into the trap anymore but i think that knowing her, she would never win against her heart… she would really have a hard time fighting her emotions… which brings us to uhum’s side… why did it take that long for him to realize nelly’s worth? i guess you could say that he had the nerve to come crawling back to nelly… how dare he, after all the hurt he’s given her… i guess, uhum is kind of self-assured because he knows what nelly feels about him, and maybe, he’s kind of taking advantage of that fact…

but i really think that it would be good for the two of them… second chances are really blessings and i think that we should not let them slip away… if you ask me… my philosophy towards this whole thingy is that “its better to love and be hurt, than not to experience love at all”…

of course, one should never take my word or advices seriously, especially if it’s about love… i for one, do not have any experience in the matter and therefore, my opinion and views would only be based on my “imagined” knowledge…

oh well….

 May 27, 2006 – 3:02 am