that was exactly what i sounded like when i was trying to sing videoke in the wee hours, early morning last sunday…

the dinner at the office last saturday was not that “enjoyable”… it’s not that it wasn’t fun, i was just kind of out-of-sync… i’m not particularly comfortable with having too many people in one place… we were like more than 50 in there and all of us were introduced to our boss… and guess what was i described as?! you’ve got it… “the best butt speller”… very embarrassing, especially when i was asked to spell “danny” with my butt…

could you imagine if i did?! of course, i didn’t… i was not willing to succumb myself to another embarrassment as i have already established myself to be a klutz at the office… thankfully, my klutzy nature did not manifest that night… good thing there was also sha and hannah… and i also got to catch up with leo (tan)… i was also kind of embarrassed because when i entered the office, here comes leo announcing to the world “baw na-miss ta gid ka bah”… yeah really… it doesn’t really matter if only i heard it but i think the whole world got to hear every syllable…

don’t take it wrongly, i’m quite ok with leo missing me , although i don’t think he really meant what he said, it’s the fact that a lot of people heard it that makes my butt wiggle uncomfortably… could you spell “paranoia”? yeah… major paranoid… i felt like every person was then quietly looking when i wasn’t looking and wondering “why the heck is this person miss-able?”

blaaattt… i mostly stayed with sha and hannah when we were eating so that i can catch up on the “gossip”… wehehehe… i just missed sha but we couldn’t really “talk” because they were a lot of people around and our topic isn’t exactly “office-friendly”… not good for other people to hear, and anyways it’d be boring… but we had a short “program” and we were supposed to present something, maam jo told me to organize the night shift as mass haven’t arrived yet… of course, most of us were very unwilling to display their hidden talents… we were kind of joking about “presenting” charade or challenging the a.m. shift to a game… it’s kind of funny because every saturday, we get to play games as part of our team-building and most of the time, we’d play variations of charades… i think we’d pe professional actors in no time if we keep up with the trend…

i did mention that we “sang” With a Smile and (tried to) sing and danced my humps… i actually stood there in front and tried to hide… was just trying to mouth the words but just the same, i wasn’t exactly into singing videoke in front of a stranger… our boss then discussed some things…

it was already past 10pm when we finished, because we started late… sha waited to be picked up so we just went outside and waited there… i wasn’t really able to concentrate on work because i haven’t slept well and i was kind of tired… we were instructed to just do a “little” bit of work maybe until 2am but by 1am we were kind of being lax and maam and mass had already started singing in the videoke… i just kind of sat there and socialized with people (amy and i talked about books… very nerdy) and tried to sleep…

later on though, i joined the people who were singing at the videoke and sang a few songs… or should i say ‘tried” to sing a few songs… it was kind of fun… and my paranoia did kind of disappear… i didn’ really care if people heard me singing… i’m actually beginning to feel comfortable being with my officemates because they’re really just kind of like my classmates back in college…

it was kind of fun singing because you always get high scores even if you sing terribly, i also think that the better you sing, your score kinds of even gets lower and when you sing terribly, your score seems higher… anyways, that’s only my observation… wonder what songs i sang? well, uhmmm… i’m trying to remember… ok… huwag mo nang itanong, crush, especially for you, linger… wahahaha…

sir danny arrived (already in his badminton-playing ensemble) at the office at about 5:30 am and we were still singing our hearts out… we only stopped when it was already 7am and most of them went on to play badminton at sports complex…

sometimes, i want to go with them… not to play but just to observe and maybe run a few laps but i also think twice because if i do go with them, i might be compelled to play and that would be major problem because in my whole life, i think i only got to handle a badminton racket twice or thrice… then, i’d be forced to play and most likely, i’d really suck at it and i’d really embarrass myself again… maybe, if it was tennis, i could somehow find my way around it… really…

did i mention that john paul already went to england? it seems that just when he’s away, it’s the time that we kind of always “talk” to each other… he’s almost always online during the wee hours of the morning, so we get to catch up… i also “see” most of my friends during the night in ym so i get also to catch up on them… good for me… sometimes though, i ran out of things to say and well… it’s not good when you ran out of things to say… and i’m not the type to initiate the conversation, if people want to talk to me, i just wait for them to ym me… that way, i’d not disturb them (if they have work) and i’d know that they really want to talk… wehehehe… pol and i are playing pool…. and i don’t have the slighest idea how… wahaha…

errr… i still have to do other stuff… bye

 August 17, 2006 – 10:34 am